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YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME!

15 Jan

YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME

You were suppose to love me – Not abuse me

You were suppose to teach me – Not confuse me

You were suppose to guide, direct, and shield – Not have SEX with me!

You were meant to protect but – You destroyed me mentally.

You told me I was born for a purpose and expected me to understand, but how could I if seemingly I was just a part of your sick, twisted and sinister plan. You said I’m here for a reason, PLEASE explain the reason to me! Was it to suffer from pain and anguish?! That’s what I know, that’s all I’ve seen.

How can you say I’ll be someone great! Why, Why, couldn’t you just let me be?!

Now tell me, what life value can you instill in me, when the man who was suppose to love me, teach me, shelter and protect me won’t let me be?! Life from my perspective now becomes to hell with you, to hell with me?!

YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME!!

Instead you took advantage- you stole my innocence, you took my sense of wonder, you annihilated hope, decimated trust, you blighted the future! YOU VIOLATED ME!

You don’t know where I’m heading and where I’ll end up aint no telling!

You shattered dreams, you broke my heart, you replaced joy with pain and turned something beautiful and pure into utter disdain.

HE WAS SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME – NOT HAVE SEX WITH ME!!

BUT, these were the actions and beliefs of dear old grandad, so what are you saying I shouldn’t be sad?!

You dare not ask me to be happy, I much enjoy being sad, for it was those time that I was happy…

It maybe twisted but I’m glad when I’m sad.

I could pretend but it would be all lies, and don’t you DARE go judging me until you’ve looked through my eyes!

YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME!

The Story Unfolds…

8 Jan

I saw the casket, white with gold trimmings, the interior white, soft and plush, in it laid the body of a beautiful slender dark skinned girl, she seemed at peace but on closer examination her face seemed distressed as if her last days were less than content. The make up used to conceal revealed familiarity. Compelled I drew nearer as if being pulled by a magnetic force forcing me to look, I looked closer, it was ME!
I had died. I had succumbed to the pressures, my heart gave up, the darkness and confusion that surrounded me was too great, I caved. I fought but it was a lonely fight, I fought for others yet I fought for and against myself. I had given it my all but my strength wavered, my courage was strained I had given up. No, this cant be! Not here! Not now! NO! I screamed…
I awoke, it was a dream, a dream that unearthed something within, I vowed, this will/shall not be my end. I will SPEAK, I will SPEAK for others, I will SPEAK for me. Childhood Sexual Abuse MUST END!!! I cannot do this alone but this vicious cycle must be broken! The lives already altered must be restored… Join me as I/We Journey2Free. From my heart to yours. Love Rizzy