About

Hi,

My name is Larissa Rhone. I’m from a tiny little island in the Caribbean name Jamaica. I’m a mother of two and the eldest of six. For years I tried to make sense of the cards in which I was dealt in my life. I found ways in which to cope. I focused on everyone around me, became a Ms. Fix it for all, as a way to deflect from what I needed to address. In my personal life, I did whatever was necessary to run away from my thoughts, I worked, school, participated in church and other social events, attended my siblings events, anything to avoid being alone with ME. I would face one set back after the other. My health was declining, but I never cared to stop, I had to keep moving. Then my siblings started leaving, having their own life’s. I tried countless hobbies, was never dedicated or disciplined enough to finish or half way complete anything I started. Just a few years ago I decided to retreat, I felt myself slipping into a state of depression. I needed to figure out the meaning of it all, what my purpose was?! I soon realized in order for me to do so I had to dig deep, I had to travel to some unpleasant places, journey to the corners of my mind and awaken things I had suppressed for years.  I was slowly dying and I wasn’t doing much to help myself.

I started my autobiography, in fact, I decided to work on my memoirs simultaneously which are still sitting on my night table. I got to about two chapters in each, and, yup,  you guessed it,  I deflected! Writing my story proved too challenging, I would have to revisit some ugly places, which mentally I wasn’t prepared. I knew however I loved writing, I dabbled in speech writing, poetry, writing for friends, don’t know if I was any good but hey, I wrote, until yup!  I stopped that too…funny!

Why now?! It’s rather freaking scary going this route, because a lot of my blogs will be on a personal note, I know I’m going to be judged, ostracized, get the backlash, the rude and insensitive comments with others taking offense and personalizing my choice and actions, the assumptions and judgement will come, the unwanted or never asked for opinions,  the critics will come out … BUT

As you know, its taboo to speak about Childhood Sexual Abuse (CSA). Family and society tells us, it would be better for us to take our issues to your grave. Silently die inside, that’s much better!  Well, I can’t keep dying anymore! This much I have proven, God sustained me through it all! There is a reason, there is something bigger than me, a destiny I must fulfill.  This blog serves as my therapy, my recovery! A blog about my journey to acknowledgment, acceptance, personal growth, self discovery and my personal freedom.

This is my choice, recording the accounts of MY LIFE which entails years of sexual abuse, living with a chronic disease, betrayal, mistrust, resentment, emotional torment and mental anguish. For years I struggled with acceptance and love! I’m beginning to realize the love and acceptance I sought was there, by the way of my very siblings I so deeply loved, a few relatives, friends, last but surely not least God! I’m walking blindly by faith, blinders on walking into that which he has prepared for me, that which I was destined to become.

Here is to the past, the present, the future me. I’m shedding the veil of anger, resentment and mistrust, slowly but surely discarding the blanket of unforgiveness I safely wrapped myself in for years, coyly de-robing, emerging from a cocoon of fear that debilitated me and eagerly and anxiously stepping into the Me that God intended for Me to be.
I’m on way, I’m journeying to free!!!  Join me as I/we Journey2Free!

8 Responses to “About”

  1. Vena April 9, 2013 at 2:11 AM #

    I am proud of you my dear, in order to heal you have to let it out, take off the mask, God will always take care of you, have no fear or shame you did nothing wrong…Peace and Love.

    • Journey2Free April 9, 2013 at 11:58 AM #

      Thank you. I have to remind myself of this daily…Thank you.

  2. grace to survive December 29, 2016 at 6:03 AM #

    It is your blog, you have the power to decline comments that are cruel and ignorant; cast them off in your mind and on paper if any come.

    I only follow blogs that are highly personal and where woman have finally come forward about the horrors and crimes done to them as children. Just because the criminal is a family member does make it less of a crime, in fact it is more of one. A child is kept silent about truly devastating traumas when she needs help and intervention instead….She is not given intervention that allows for healing because so called ‘family’ hides behind their own shame and shames her into silence to protect themselves.

    The ‘taboo’ must end to protect our children. Yet it still goes on. Courageous women like you will help others.

    • Journey2Free December 29, 2016 at 11:30 AM #

      Thank you! Thank you for the reminder, the encouraging words and your support. My hope is to shed some needed light on this topic prayerfully making this less taboo. Thanks again..

  3. grace to survive December 30, 2016 at 6:17 AM #

    I always moderate every comment.Only a few have gone without approval. Most of the community I am a part of have lifted me like none other.

    • Journey2Free December 30, 2016 at 12:04 PM #

      I pray for the same reception… Thank you!

  4. Serena Bradshaw March 26, 2017 at 11:50 AM #

    You deserve to live. You deserve to speak. If the internet trolls come along then they are not worthy. Please don’t take it personally if that happens. But you know since I began blogging I have met such warmth, such graciousness and love from others who I do not know. Much more than I ever felt from my so called family. (PS Here in the UK they insist I label myself as Black British. But it may interest you to know that actually my birth mother who abandoned me was from Jamaica. I believe the man who she created me with was also from Jamaica.)

    • Journey2Free March 26, 2017 at 2:23 PM #

      Hi Serena, Thank you for taking the time out to respond. I am rather intrigued by that tidbit, very interesting, wow! You are much appreciated. Thank you for the support.

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