Pained

“A life lived in constant pain, suppressing hurts and misinterpreted shame is no life lived at all!” (LHR)   I hurt for you! I cry for you! My heart breaks and bleeds for you!   I wonder, how many people have died taking with them secrets that drove them to an early grave? Secrets that […]

I Wonder…

‘My father died not knowing his daughters were sexually abused as children’. I often wonder, had my dad known I/we were sexually violated, how different would my/our life’s be? Dad passed on April 2, 2017, and I’m unsure as to why I’ve been plagued with all these ‘I wonder’ questions since.  It pains me to my […]

A Daughter’s Heart Break… Part 2

There’s been a knot in my chest since the 2nd of April 2017, I’ve had several nightmares since then. I am uneasy, I keep replaying calling you, begging for you to wake up dad, to grant me the opportunity to say a proper and final goodbye. I have shed countless tears in private as well […]

A Daughter’s Heart Break… Part 1

I struggle to make sense of it all. Death is inevitable I know. He was 81 years old, had less than perfect health, often incoherent in the afternoons (dementia does that), had a few aches and pain, hunched over from osteoporosis, but, outside of that he was fine, or so I believed. He lived his […]