I’ll Be Damned!

I’ll Be Damned! When you have spent 35 years believing that you’re not good enough, you’re damaged, broken and unlovable, changing that mindset can prove rather challenging. Impatience and frustration sets in, one day I’m up and my mood reflects what I feel inwardly, which is unstoppable, I can do all things and proceed to […]

Pained

“A life lived in constant pain, suppressing hurts and misinterpreted shame is no life lived at all!” (LHR)   I hurt for you! I cry for you! My heart breaks and bleeds for you!   I wonder, how many people have died taking with them secrets that drove them to an early grave? Secrets that […]

I Wonder…

‘My father died not knowing his daughters were sexually abused as children’. I often wonder, had my dad known I/we were sexually violated, how different would my/our life’s be? Dad passed on April 2, 2017, and I’m unsure as to why I’ve been plagued with all these ‘I wonder’ questions since.  It pains me to my […]

A Daughter’s Heart Break… Part 2

There’s been a knot in my chest since the 2nd of April 2017, I’ve had several nightmares since then. I am uneasy, I keep replaying calling you, begging for you to wake up dad, to grant me the opportunity to say a proper and final goodbye. I have shed countless tears in private as well […]

A Daughter’s Heart Break… Part 1

I struggle to make sense of it all. Death is inevitable I know. He was 81 years old, had less than perfect health, often incoherent in the afternoons (dementia does that), had a few aches and pain, hunched over from osteoporosis, but, outside of that he was fine, or so I believed. He lived his […]