Each time I thought about attending the party, I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack. An internal tug of war was taking place. I was doing it again. Once again, I allowed myself to be conflicted at the expectation and request of a loved one. I still struggled with saying […]
The plans were underway, no-one bothered to include me or even ask, was it that they knew I wouldn’t be interested in attending, or was it something more sinister? Could it be they didn’t want me there for fear of contention? December 20th, 2016 – Was the last time I spoke to and was physically in […]
**TRIGGER WARNING** Discussions of Child Sexual Abuse. Episodes may contain graphic details. THE SMELL STILL LINGERS TILL TODAY! – After contracting a sexually transmitted disease at age seven (7), a sixty (60) year old Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor FINALLY speaks. Hurting for over fifty (50) spent years, she carried the turmoil doing what so many […]
The threats are reeling in. The vile and insensitive remarks are endless, the accusations, and assumptions are piling on and the questions are many! I have gone and done the unthinkable, the inexcusable, and the unforgivable. I spoke and am speaking my truth! I promised myself I would refrain from writing angry but recent occurrences cause me to want to vent a little.
Retreat Nights were the hardest. I was preoccupied throughout the days. I kept myself busy (another unhealthy form of coping) I did what I knew best, put on a brave face, smiled, and performed my way through the pain while attending to my obligations. It’s a tough call when your obligations include motivating and inspiring others while […]
VERTIGO The Merriam Webster Dictionary definition of vertigo: – a sensation of motion in which the individual’s surroundings seems to whirl dizzily. I’m at a point in my life where I’m learning to just (hahahahaha) laugh at life’s hiccups. After not posting for so long, I had a personal goal, a little pact I made […]
AS PROMISED: HERE IT IS! – The official preview of MASKED! MASKED! – A JOURNEY 2 FREE/ST. THOMAS EVENTS SERIES…. Though these interviews were extremely difficult to get through, I had to follow through with divine instructions, because the word needs to get out. We MUST SPEAK AND REASSIGN THE SHAME! The shame victims/survivors […]
Father, I humbly ask your forgiveness, for all the times I doubted you, for all the times I failed to exercise trust, for all the times I was ungrateful and blind to favor overlooking mercy and grace, please forgive me. 🙏🏾 Father, I am significantly flawed, you know this to be true, because of […]
Sometimes we just need a hug. Sometimes we just need a good crying fest and a hug to relieve ourselves from built up anxiety, frustration and stress. Last Tuesday I received the wakeup call I so desperately needed. After weeks of riding the waves of uncertainty, self-pity and ambiguous moods, I arrived at a place […]
Survivor-hood is grueling and rather complex. There is no right or wrong way to go through the healing process, but it requires much patience, self-care, self-forgiveness, push, pull, ups, downs, failed attempts and countless retry’s or stating over.