MASKED – Episode 3

MASKED – Episode 3

by | May 24, 2020 | Break The Silence, Child abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Common Behavioral Patterns after Child Sexual Abuse, Conversations, Dignity Reclaimed, Ejaculation, From my heart to yours, He ejaculated on me, Healing, Helping me through, I am overcoming, I attempted suicide, I don't want to be touched, I hate men, It's Not Your Fault!, Journaling Helps, Journey 2 Free, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journey2Free, Journeying 2 Freedom, Journeying to Freedom, Journeytofree, Justice, Molestation, Molested at 7, Molested at age 7-9, Molested by four separate abusers, My story, my choice, No More Secrets!, promiscuity, Rage, Raped at 14 years old, Reassigning Shame, Reclaiming your voice, Sex was my healing, Sexual Abuse, Shatter The Silence, Shattered Trust, Stand In Your Truth, Stolen Innocence, Stop child sexual abuse, Suicide, Surviving Molestation, Surviving Rape, Trauma, Trauma and Recovery, Traumatized, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, Unhealed Wounds, Unmasked, Unworthy, We Speak To Heal, Women supporting women, You Are Not Alone

MOLESTED BY FOUR SEPARATE ABUSERS BETWEEN AGES 7-9. RAPED AT 14 YEARS OLD BY A STALKER.  **TRIGGER WARNING** Discussions of Child Sexual Abuse. Episodes may contain graphic details. Sex was my healing. Molested and Raped by five separate guys on separate occasions....
A 80TH Birthday Celebration

A 80TH Birthday Celebration

by | May 10, 2020 | A birthday celebration, Acceptance, Apology, Awakened Retreat, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Break The Silence, Breaking Cycles, Broken Trust, Challenging, Child abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Conflict, Confusion, Conversations, Courage, Creating Shifts, CSA, Dignity Reclaimed, Disappointments, Embrace change, Empowerment, Encouragement, Evolving, Faith Over Fear, family, Family members, fear, Fighter, Forgiveness, Forgiving Self, Freedom, Generational Rape, God, Healing, Honesty, Hope, Hopeful, I need Help, Journey, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journey2Free, Journeytofree, Life, Memories, Mind Set Transformation, Motives, My life, my way, My story, my choice, Negativity, Never Too Old, No More Secrets!, Overcoming, Panic Attacks/Anxiety, Perseverance, Reassigning Shame, Reclaim, Reclaim your dignity, Reclaiming your voice, Regenerate, Rejection, Relationships, Resolve, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-healer, Sexual Abuse, Shatter The Silence, Smile, Speak, Speak to Heal, Speak-Out, spiritual entrepreneur, Stolen Innocence, Stop child sexual abuse, Strength, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Surviving healing, Surviving Trauma, Survivor, Take a stand, Take back your power, Taking my power back, Therapy, Transformation, Transparency, Trauma, Trauma and Recovery, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, truth, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa

Each time I thought about attending the party, I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack. An internal tug of war was taking place. I was doing it again. Once again, I allowed myself to be conflicted at the expectation and request of a loved one. I still...
To Go or Not To Go?

To Go or Not To Go?

by | May 3, 2020 | #Acceptance, #Expectations, #Journey2Free, #Release, A birthday celebration, Acceptance, afraid, anger, Apologies, Apology, Attention Seeking Bitch, Awakened, Be The Change, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Bitch, Break The Silence, Breaking Cycles, Broken, Broken Trust, But God, Challenging, Child abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, children, Choices, Conflict, Confusion, Conquer fear, Conquering fear, Contention, Conversations, Courage, Creating Shifts, CSA, Disappointments, Emotions, Encouragement, Family members, fear, Fighter, Freedom, Generational Rape, God, God doesn't understand, Healing, Heartaches, Honesty, I am woman, Inner Conflict, Insecurities, It's Not Your Fault!, Journey, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journey2Free, Journeytofree, Life, Life happens, lifetransformation, Liveauthentic, Long post, Lost, love, Memories, Motives, Negativity, Rage, Rape, Reclaim, Reclaim your dignity, Rejection, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-Esteem, Self-Esteem Issues, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-Harm, Self-Hate, Self-healer, Self-love, Self-recovery, Sexual Abuse, Shame, Shatter The Silence, Speak, Speak to Heal, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Start where you are, Starting Over, Stop child sexual abuse, Strength, Stuck in abuse, Stuck in trauma, support, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Surviving healing, Surviving Trauma, Survivor, Take a stand, Take back your power, Taking my power back, Threatened, Threatened Into Submission, threats, Times Up, torment, Trauma, Trauma and Recovery, Unhealed Wounds, Unworthy, updates, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa, What it means to be me, Women supporting women, Wounds

The plans were underway, no-one bothered to include me or even ask, was it that they knew I wouldn’t be interested in attending, or was it something more sinister? Could it be they didn’t want me there for fear of contention? December 20th, 2016 –...
MASKED. Episode 2

MASKED. Episode 2

by | Apr 19, 2020 | #goals, 60 years old, afraid, anger, Apologies, Apology, Awful smell, Betrayal, Break The Silence, Broken, Broken Trust, But God, Challenging, Child abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, children, Christianity, Confusion, Conversations, Courage, CSA, Death, Do it anyway, Ejaculation, Embrace change, Emotions, Empowered Women Empower Women, Empowerment, Encouragement, Enough, Enough is Enough, Every kind of lady, Evolving, Faith, family, Family members, fear, Fighter, Flashbacks, Forgiving Self, Freedom, God doesn't understand, Growth, Healing, Honesty, Hope, I am every kind of girl, I am her, she is me, I am woman, I need Help, I'm every woman, Internal pain, Isolation, It's Not Your Fault!, Journey, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journey2Free, Journeytofree, Life, Lost, Masked, Me Too, Memories, Molestation, Molested at 7, My story, my choice, Never Too Old, No More Secrets!, No-one understands, No-one would listen, Nobody hears me, Nobody listens, Overcomer, Overcoming, Overwhelming, Pain, Parenting, Penis, Pimped by her sister, Prayer, Rage, Rape, Reassigning Shame, Reclaim, Reclaim your dignity, Reclaiming your voice, Relationships, Removing the mask, Scars, Secrets, Self-Esteem Issues, Self-expression, Self-healer, Sexual Abuse, Sexual transmitted disease, Shame, Shatter The Silence, Shattered, Shattered Trust, Smile, Speak, Speak to Heal, Speak-Out, Speaking, spiritual entrepreneur, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Start where you are, Stolen Dignity, Stolen Innocence, Stop child sexual abuse, Strength, Stuck in abuse, Stuck in trauma, Suicide, support, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Surviving healing, Surviving Trauma, Survivor, Take back your power, Taking my power back, The Almighty, The smell, theeverygirl, Times Up, torment, Transparency, Trauma, Trauma and Recovery, Traumatized, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, truth, turmoil, TVJ, Unhealed Wounds, Unmasked, Unworthy, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa, White stuff, Withdrawal, Women supporting women, Wounds, You Are Not Alone

**TRIGGER WARNING** Discussions of Child Sexual Abuse. Episodes may contain graphic details. THE SMELL STILL LINGERS TILL TODAY! – After contracting a sexually transmitted disease at age seven (7), a sixty (60) year old Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor FINALLY...
Unapologetic Part 1 (repost)

Unapologetic Part 1 (repost)

by | Apr 12, 2020 | #Journey2Free, #Release, anger, Anxiety, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Peace, Self-Respect, Awakened, Be The Change, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Breaking Cycles, Broken, Broken Trust, But God, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Courage, Creating Shifts, Depression, Disappointments, Emotions, Empowered Women Empower Women, Empowerment, Encouragement, Enough, Enough is Enough, Evolving, Expect the unexpected, Expectations, Faith, faithoverfear, family, fear, Fighter, Flashbacks, Forgiving Self, Freedom, Generational Rape, God, Growth, Healing, Hope, Hopeful, I choose, Insecurities, Internal pain, Isolation, It's Not Your Fault!, Journey, Justice, Life, Memories, Mind Set Transformation, Mindfulliving, No More Secrets!, Overcomer, Overcoming, Overwhelming, Pain, Perseverance, Prayer, promiscuity, Rage, Rape, Reassigning Shame, Regenerate, Resolve, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-Esteem, Self-Esteem Issues, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-Harm, Self-Hate, Sexual Abuse, Shame, Shatter The Silence, Soul-searching, Speak, Speak-Out, Speaking, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Strength, Suicide, Surviving healing, Survivor, Transformation, Transparency, Trauma, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, truth, Unhealed Wounds, Unworthy, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa, What it means to be me, Wholeness, Withdrawal

 What started it all? I am choosing to ‘repost’ for the benefit of ‘all’ the people that only recently started following the blog as a result of theJ2F mini-series MASKED. Yes, your story is my story…  These pictures represent a turning...
Crushed – Part 2

Crushed – Part 2

by | Apr 5, 2020 | #Acceptance, #Expectations, #goals, #Journey2Free, #Release, anger, Apologies, Apology, Awakened, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Breaking Cycles, Breakups, Broken, Broken Trust, Challenging, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Conversations, Courage, Creating Shifts, Disappointments, Emotions, Empowerment, Encouragement, Evolving, Expectations, faithoverfear, family, fear, Fighter, Flashbacks, Forgiveness, Forgiving Self, Freedom, Generational Rape, Growth, guilt, Happiness, Healing, Heartaches, Honesty, Hope, Hopeful, Hopeless, I choose, Insecurities, Internal pain, Isolation, Journey, Life, Life happens, lifetransformation, Liveauthentic, love, Memories, Mind Set Transformation, Mindfulliving, Mommy-duties, Neglect, Overcomer, Overcoming, Overwhelming, Pain, Perseverance, Rage, Reassigning Shame, Regenerate, Rejection, Relationships, Resolve, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-Esteem, Self-Esteem Issues, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-Hate, Self-love, Self-recovery, Sexual Abuse, Shame, Smile, Soul-searching, Speak, Speak-Out, Speaking, spiritual entrepreneur, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Startwhereyouare, Strength, support, Surviving healing, Survivor, theeverygirl, Transformation, Transparency, Trauma, Triggered, Trust-Issues, truth, Unhealed Wounds, Unworthy, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa, What it means to be me, Wholeness, Withdrawal, Woman up, Wounds

 Retreat Nights were the hardest. I was preoccupied throughout the days. I kept myself busy (another unhealthy form of coping) I did what I knew best, put on a brave face, smiled, and performed my way through the pain while attending to my obligations. It’s a...