1) The only things I have control over are my thoughts, emotions, and my reactions.
2) My pain is not meant for just me.
3) Be grateful in ALL things
4) Willpower is built by doing difficult things.
5) It’s OK to celebrate small daily wins.
6) When I cannot see God’s hands, trust his heart.
7) It’s OKAY to ask for help
8) Do NOT give up on yourself; God will not give up on you.
The last 10 months have been an emotional, mental, and physical battleground – one that I’m still walking through. I thank God that when I doubted and could not see his hand, his character and heart were revealed.
- 1st Quarter – I had a pulmonary embolism and septicemia; I survived a heart attack and four other life-threatening emergencies.
- 2nd Quarter – I had to learn to walk again after weeks of muscle atrophy (deconditioning of the muscles) had set in.
- 3rd Quarter – A hip replacement – Believing my quality of life would be improved after Avascular Necrosis (death of bone tissue due to a lack of blood supply) robbed me of my mobility. However, after surgery, I ended up with an 11/2-inch leg height discrepancy.🥲
- 4th Quarter – I had to dig deep, develop mental fortitude and rely on God for His strength to carry me through.
Though scared half the time, I had to get up, push through, and allow myself to feel, to grieve what was and is – while accepting and adjusting to my new reality.
Mentally – it’s been one of my hardest-fought battles, convincing myself to take one step, one leg lift after the other – it’s the mind communicating with the brain saying, yes, you have to do it again!
Physically – every move felt like bones crushing, volts of electricity shocking, or a stabbing sensation; I have to push through the discomfort.
What keeps me going after all these years? My passion and commitment to fulfilling my purpose (uncovering all that’s within me) and helping others awaken to their purpose while healing forward.
I am not the woman I was 10 months ago – I am better, not bitter; I had to come out of my comfort zone – trusting and relying on others to be my hands and feet. 4 months post-op and I still have a way to go – I will keep pressing with God’s help.
To my Mommy, family, and my boys – I can never repay you for all the sacrifices. To my relatives and friends, thank you for your prayers and words of encouragement.
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