YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME
You were suppose to love me – Not abuse me
You were suppose to teach me – Not confuse me
You were suppose to guide, direct, and shield – Not have SEX with me!
You were meant to protect but – You destroyed me mentally.
You told me I was born for a purpose and expected me to understand, but how could I if seemingly I was just a part of your sick, twisted and sinister plan. You said I’m here for a reason, PLEASE explain the reason to me! Was it to suffer from pain and anguish?! That’s what I know, that’s all I’ve seen.
How can you say I’ll be someone great! Why, Why, couldn’t you just let me be?!
Now tell me, what life value can you instill in me, when the man who was suppose to love me, teach me, shelter and protect me won’t let me be?! Life from my perspective now becomes to hell with you, to hell with me?!
YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME!!
Instead you took advantage- you stole my innocence, you took my sense of wonder, you annihilated hope, decimated trust, you blighted the future! YOU VIOLATED ME!
You don’t know where I’m heading and where I’ll end up aint no telling!
You shattered dreams, you broke my heart, you replaced joy with pain and turned something beautiful and pure into utter disdain.
HE WAS SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME – NOT HAVE SEX WITH ME!!
BUT, these were the actions and beliefs of dear old grandad, so what are you saying I shouldn’t be sad?!
You dare not ask me to be happy, I much enjoy being sad, for it was those time that I was happy…
It maybe twisted but I’m glad when I’m sad.
I could pretend but it would be all lies, and don’t you DARE go judging me until you’ve looked through my eyes!
YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME!
I am sorry for all you suffered and the deep anguish such trauma has caused. You sound like a very strong woman who can work through this.
I’m so sorry I just saw this comment. Thank you so much. I am working on this, taking it a day at time… hmmmm