A 80TH Birthday Celebration

A 80TH Birthday Celebration

by | May 10, 2020 | A birthday celebration, Acceptance, Apology, Awakened Retreat, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Break The Silence, Breaking Cycles, Broken Trust, Challenging, Child abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Conflict, Confusion, Conversations, Courage, Creating Shifts, CSA, Dignity Reclaimed, Disappointments, Embrace change, Empowerment, Encouragement, Evolving, Faith Over Fear, family, Family members, fear, Fighter, Forgiveness, Forgiving Self, Freedom, Generational Rape, God, Healing, Honesty, Hope, Hopeful, I need Help, Journey, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journey2Free, Journeytofree, Life, Memories, Mind Set Transformation, Motives, My life, my way, My story, my choice, Negativity, Never Too Old, No More Secrets!, Overcoming, Panic Attacks/Anxiety, Perseverance, Reassigning Shame, Reclaim, Reclaim your dignity, Reclaiming your voice, Regenerate, Rejection, Relationships, Resolve, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-healer, Sexual Abuse, Shatter The Silence, Smile, Speak, Speak to Heal, Speak-Out, spiritual entrepreneur, Stolen Innocence, Stop child sexual abuse, Strength, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Surviving healing, Surviving Trauma, Survivor, Take a stand, Take back your power, Taking my power back, Therapy, Transformation, Transparency, Trauma, Trauma and Recovery, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, truth, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa

Each time I thought about attending the party, I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack. An internal tug of war was taking place. I was doing it again. Once again, I allowed myself to be conflicted at the expectation and request of a loved one. I still...
Unapologetic Part 2 (repost)

Unapologetic Part 2 (repost)

by | Apr 16, 2020 | #Acceptance, #Expectations, #Journey2Free, #Release, Accusations, Advocate, anger, Anti-social Personality, Anxiety, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Peace, Self-Respect, Apologies, Apology, Attention Seeking Bitch, Awakened, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Bitch, Breaking Cycles, Broken, Broken Trust, But God, Challenging, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Conquer fear, Conquering fear, Conversations, Courage, Create your happy, Creating Shifts, Death, Death Threats, Depression, Dignity Reclaimed, Disappointments, Emotions, Empowered Women Empower Women, Empowerment, Encouragement, Enough, Enough is Enough, Every kind of lady, Evolving, Expect the unexpected, Expectation, Expectations, Faith, Faith Over Fear, faithoverfear, family, Family members, fear, Fighter, Flashbacks, Forgiving Self, Freedom, Generational Rape, God, Growth, guilt, Harlot, Healing, Honesty, Hope, Hopeful, Hopeless, I am every kind of girl, I am her, she is me, I am woman, I choose, I'm every woman, Internal pain, It's Not Your Fault!, Journey, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journeytofree, Life, Life happens, lifetransformation, Long post, Man up, Memories, Motives, My life, my way, My story, my choice, Negativity, Never Too Old, No More Secrets!, Overcomer, Overcoming, Pain, Rage, Rape, Reassigning Shame, Reclaim, Reclaim your dignity, Reclaiming your voice, Regenerate, Rejection, Relationships, Resolve, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-Esteem, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-Hate, Self-healer, Self-love, Self-recovery, Sexual Abuse, Shame, Shatter The Silence, She means business, So-called abuse, Soul-searching, Speak, Speak-Out, Speaking, spiritual entrepreneur, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Start where you are, Starting Over, Startwhereyouare, Strength, support, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Surviving healing, Surviving Trauma, Take a stand, Take back your power, Taking my power back, Threatened, Threatened Into Submission, threats, Whore

The threats are reeling in. The vile and insensitive remarks are endless, the accusations, and assumptions are piling on and the questions are many! I have gone and done the unthinkable, the inexcusable, and the unforgivable. I spoke and am speaking my truth! I...
Unapologetic Part 1 (repost)

Unapologetic Part 1 (repost)

by | Apr 12, 2020 | #Journey2Free, #Release, anger, Anxiety, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Peace, Self-Respect, Awakened, Be The Change, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Breaking Cycles, Broken, Broken Trust, But God, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Courage, Creating Shifts, Depression, Disappointments, Emotions, Empowered Women Empower Women, Empowerment, Encouragement, Enough, Enough is Enough, Evolving, Expect the unexpected, Expectations, Faith, faithoverfear, family, fear, Fighter, Flashbacks, Forgiving Self, Freedom, Generational Rape, God, Growth, Healing, Hope, Hopeful, I choose, Insecurities, Internal pain, Isolation, It's Not Your Fault!, Journey, Justice, Life, Memories, Mind Set Transformation, Mindfulliving, No More Secrets!, Overcomer, Overcoming, Overwhelming, Pain, Perseverance, Prayer, promiscuity, Rage, Rape, Reassigning Shame, Regenerate, Resolve, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-Esteem, Self-Esteem Issues, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-Harm, Self-Hate, Sexual Abuse, Shame, Shatter The Silence, Soul-searching, Speak, Speak-Out, Speaking, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Strength, Suicide, Surviving healing, Survivor, Transformation, Transparency, Trauma, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, truth, Unhealed Wounds, Unworthy, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa, What it means to be me, Wholeness, Withdrawal

 What started it all? I am choosing to ‘repost’ for the benefit of ‘all’ the people that only recently started following the blog as a result of theJ2F mini-series MASKED. Yes, your story is my story…  These pictures represent a turning...
Survivor’s Guilt

Survivor’s Guilt

by | Mar 22, 2020 | #Acceptance, #Journey2Free, Awakened, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Broken, But God, Challenging, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Chronic Disease, Courage, Creating Shifts, Death, Depression, Disappointments, Emotions, Empowerment, Encouragement, Evolving, Faith, family, fear, Fighter, Freedom, God, Growth, guilt, Healing, Heartaches, Honesty, Hope, I am living my obituary, I choose, illness, Insecurities, Isolation, It's Not Your Fault!, Journey, Life, Life happens, love, Overcomer, Overcoming, Overwhelming, Pain, Panic, Panic Attacks/Anxiety, Perseverance, Pill-Popping, Prayer, Resolve, Self- acceptance, Self-discovery, Self-love, Self-recovery, Sexual Abuse, Soul-searching, Speak, Speak-Out, Speaking, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Strength, support, Surviving healing, Survivor, Survivor Guilt, Transformation, Transparency, Trauma, truth, Unworthy, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa, What it means to be me, Wholeness

“Survivor guilt (also called survivor syndrome or survivor disorder) is a mental condition that occurs when a person believes they have done something wrong by surviving a traumatic event when others did not, often feeling self-guilt.” (Wikipedia) I never gave much...
Unapologetic Part 1 (repost)

Unapologetic – (repost)

by | Feb 17, 2019 | #Acceptance, #Journey2Free, Advocate, anger, Anxiety, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Peace, Self-Respect, Be, Be The Change, Breaking Cycles, Broken, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Courage, Evolving, family, Fighter, Freedom, Generational Rape, Growth, Healing, Intimacy, Journey, Justice, love, Overcomer, Overcoming, promiscuity, Rape, Reassigning Shame, Relationships, Secrets, Self-Esteem, Self-Esteem Issues, Sexual Abuse, Speak, Speak-Out, Speaking, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Survivor, Trust-Issues, truth, updates

These pictures represent a turning point in my life, age 5 (I was first molested) Age 11 (I was first raped… What do you see in this child’s eyes?   I lost my innocence to a cousin on a bedroom floor, raped repeatedly for years by my grandmothers husband...