47 and Finally Free: The Year I Stopped Living for Everyone Else

47 and Finally Free: The Year I Stopped Living for Everyone Else

by | Oct 29, 2025 | Childhood Sexual Abuse Recovery, Faith and Healing, Faith-Based Healing, Faith-Based Recovery, Personal Reflections, Reclaiming your voice, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Survivor Empowerment, Transformation, Trauma and Recovery, Trauma Recovery

Dear Defiant Disruptor, I wondered if it made sense to make a post this late. The month’s nearly over, the schedule’s full, and I thought, maybe it’s too late. But then I remembered: healing isn’t about perfect timing. It’s about showing up when you can, with what you...
MASKED – Episode 3

MASKED – Episode 3

by | May 24, 2020 | Break The Silence, Child abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Common Behavioral Patterns after Child Sexual Abuse, Conversations, Dignity Reclaimed, Ejaculation, From my heart to yours, He ejaculated on me, Healing, Helping me through, I am overcoming, I attempted suicide, I don't want to be touched, I hate men, It's Not Your Fault!, Journaling Helps, Journey 2 Free, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journey2Free, Journeying 2 Freedom, Journeying to Freedom, Journeytofree, Justice, Molestation, Molested at 7, Molested at age 7-9, Molested by four separate abusers, My story, my choice, No More Secrets!, promiscuity, Rage, Raped at 14 years old, Reassigning Shame, Reclaiming your voice, Sex was my healing, Sexual Abuse, Shatter The Silence, Shattered Trust, Stand In Your Truth, Stolen Innocence, Stop child sexual abuse, Suicide, Surviving Molestation, Surviving Rape, Trauma, Trauma and Recovery, Traumatized, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, Unhealed Wounds, Unmasked, Unworthy, We Speak To Heal, Women supporting women, You Are Not Alone

MOLESTED BY FOUR SEPARATE ABUSERS BETWEEN AGES 7-9. RAPED AT 14 YEARS OLD BY A STALKER.  **TRIGGER WARNING** Discussions of Child Sexual Abuse. Episodes may contain graphic details. Sex was my healing. Molested and Raped by five separate guys on separate occasions....
A 80TH Birthday Celebration

A 80TH Birthday Celebration

by | May 10, 2020 | A birthday celebration, Acceptance, Apology, Awakened Retreat, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Break The Silence, Breaking Cycles, Broken Trust, Challenging, Child abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Conflict, Confusion, Conversations, Courage, Creating Shifts, CSA, Dignity Reclaimed, Disappointments, Embrace change, Empowerment, Encouragement, Evolving, Faith Over Fear, family, Family members, fear, Fighter, Forgiveness, Forgiving Self, Freedom, Generational Rape, God, Healing, Honesty, Hope, Hopeful, I need Help, Journey, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journey2Free, Journeytofree, Life, Memories, Mind Set Transformation, Motives, My life, my way, My story, my choice, Negativity, Never Too Old, No More Secrets!, Overcoming, Panic Attacks/Anxiety, Perseverance, Reassigning Shame, Reclaim, Reclaim your dignity, Reclaiming your voice, Regenerate, Rejection, Relationships, Resolve, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-healer, Sexual Abuse, Shatter The Silence, Smile, Speak, Speak to Heal, Speak-Out, spiritual entrepreneur, Stolen Innocence, Stop child sexual abuse, Strength, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Surviving healing, Surviving Trauma, Survivor, Take a stand, Take back your power, Taking my power back, Therapy, Transformation, Transparency, Trauma, Trauma and Recovery, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, truth, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa

Each time I thought about attending the party, I felt like I was on the verge of a panic attack. An internal tug of war was taking place. I was doing it again. Once again, I allowed myself to be conflicted at the expectation and request of a loved one. I still...
MASKED. Episode 2

MASKED. Episode 2

by | Apr 19, 2020 | #goals, 60 years old, afraid, anger, Apologies, Apology, Awful smell, Betrayal, Break The Silence, Broken, Broken Trust, But God, Challenging, Child abuse, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, children, Christianity, Confusion, Conversations, Courage, CSA, Death, Do it anyway, Ejaculation, Embrace change, Emotions, Empowered Women Empower Women, Empowerment, Encouragement, Enough, Enough is Enough, Every kind of lady, Evolving, Faith, family, Family members, fear, Fighter, Flashbacks, Forgiving Self, Freedom, God doesn't understand, Growth, Healing, Honesty, Hope, I am every kind of girl, I am her, she is me, I am woman, I need Help, I'm every woman, Internal pain, Isolation, It's Not Your Fault!, Journey, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journey2Free, Journeytofree, Life, Lost, Masked, Me Too, Memories, Molestation, Molested at 7, My story, my choice, Never Too Old, No More Secrets!, No-one understands, No-one would listen, Nobody hears me, Nobody listens, Overcomer, Overcoming, Overwhelming, Pain, Parenting, Penis, Pimped by her sister, Prayer, Rage, Rape, Reassigning Shame, Reclaim, Reclaim your dignity, Reclaiming your voice, Relationships, Removing the mask, Scars, Secrets, Self-Esteem Issues, Self-expression, Self-healer, Sexual Abuse, Sexual transmitted disease, Shame, Shatter The Silence, Shattered, Shattered Trust, Smile, Speak, Speak to Heal, Speak-Out, Speaking, spiritual entrepreneur, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Start where you are, Stolen Dignity, Stolen Innocence, Stop child sexual abuse, Strength, Stuck in abuse, Stuck in trauma, Suicide, support, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Surviving healing, Surviving Trauma, Survivor, Take back your power, Taking my power back, The Almighty, The smell, theeverygirl, Times Up, torment, Transparency, Trauma, Trauma and Recovery, Traumatized, Triggered, Triggers, Trust-Issues, truth, turmoil, TVJ, Unhealed Wounds, Unmasked, Unworthy, We Speak To Heal, What it means to be Larissa, White stuff, Withdrawal, Women supporting women, Wounds, You Are Not Alone

**TRIGGER WARNING** Discussions of Child Sexual Abuse. Episodes may contain graphic details. THE SMELL STILL LINGERS TILL TODAY! – After contracting a sexually transmitted disease at age seven (7), a sixty (60) year old Childhood Sexual Abuse Survivor FINALLY...
Unapologetic Part 2 (repost)

Unapologetic Part 2 (repost)

by | Apr 16, 2020 | #Acceptance, #Expectations, #Journey2Free, #Release, Accusations, Advocate, anger, Anti-social Personality, Anxiety, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Peace, Self-Respect, Apologies, Apology, Attention Seeking Bitch, Awakened, Becoming, Becoming Larissa, Betrayal, Bitch, Breaking Cycles, Broken, Broken Trust, But God, Challenging, Childhood Sexual Abuse, Childhood Trauma, Choices, Conquer fear, Conquering fear, Conversations, Courage, Create your happy, Creating Shifts, Death, Death Threats, Depression, Dignity Reclaimed, Disappointments, Emotions, Empowered Women Empower Women, Empowerment, Encouragement, Enough, Enough is Enough, Every kind of lady, Evolving, Expect the unexpected, Expectation, Expectations, Faith, Faith Over Fear, faithoverfear, family, Family members, fear, Fighter, Flashbacks, Forgiving Self, Freedom, Generational Rape, God, Growth, guilt, Harlot, Healing, Honesty, Hope, Hopeful, Hopeless, I am every kind of girl, I am her, she is me, I am woman, I choose, I'm every woman, Internal pain, It's Not Your Fault!, Journey, Journey 2 Freedom, Journey to Free, Journey to freedom, Journeytofree, Life, Life happens, lifetransformation, Long post, Man up, Memories, Motives, My life, my way, My story, my choice, Negativity, Never Too Old, No More Secrets!, Overcomer, Overcoming, Pain, Rage, Rape, Reassigning Shame, Reclaim, Reclaim your dignity, Reclaiming your voice, Regenerate, Rejection, Relationships, Resolve, Scars, Secrets, Self- acceptance, Self-Care, Self-discovery, Self-Esteem, Self-expression, Self-Forgiveness, Self-Hate, Self-healer, Self-love, Self-recovery, Sexual Abuse, Shame, Shatter The Silence, She means business, So-called abuse, Soul-searching, Speak, Speak-Out, Speaking, spiritual entrepreneur, Stand, Stand In Your Truth, Start where you are, Starting Over, Startwhereyouare, Strength, support, Surviving Child Sexual Abuse, Surviving healing, Surviving Trauma, Take a stand, Take back your power, Taking my power back, Threatened, Threatened Into Submission, threats, Whore

The threats are reeling in. The vile and insensitive remarks are endless, the accusations, and assumptions are piling on and the questions are many! I have gone and done the unthinkable, the inexcusable, and the unforgivable. I spoke and am speaking my truth! I...