I’ll Be Damned! When you have spent 35 years believing that you’re not good enough, you’re damaged, broken and unlovable, changing that mindset can prove rather challenging. Impatience and frustration sets in, one day I’m up and my mood reflects what I feel inwardly, which is unstoppable, I can do all things and proceed to […]
One very common effect of trauma is the feeling of unworthiness and many of us immerse ourselves totally and completely into our friendships and relationships often unknowingly, simply because of the payoff, the reassurance of belonging, as well as the meaning – we are normal.
Survivor-hood is grueling and rather complex. There is no right or wrong way to go through the healing process, but it requires much patience, self-care, self-forgiveness, push, pull, ups, downs, failed attempts and countless retry’s or stating over.
“Yup, she’s depressed and going through one of her moods!” My favorite outfit to wear – boots, hooded sweatshirts and sweatpants. I wear them when I lounge, I wear them out, I would wear them everywhere if allowed, but I know that’s not possible. ‘Comfort,’ was my response when asked or quizzed by loved ones […]
These pictures represent a turning point in my life, age 5 (I was first molested) Age 11 (I was first raped… What do you see in this child’s eyes? I lost my innocence to a cousin on a bedroom floor, raped repeatedly for years by my grandmothers husband and was touched inappropriately by an uncle all […]
I was awakened this morning by the younger me, forcibly asking me questions, while screaming Help! Help! HELP ME PLEASE! She asked, what happened to You? What happened to Me? What happened to that bright-eyed, vivacious, precocious child We use to be?! Remember how they told us We had potential? They said WE were the […]
“To love others you must first love yourself” Leo Buscaglia Cliches are common, I have been known to repeat a few, a good cliche used correctly can help you to drive home a point and change the direction of a conversation. Some cliche’s however, like the one highlighted above for me, just never took. I […]
“But, I’ve watched you sleep on more than one occasion during the day while I was next to you, how do you explain that?” Self actualization, self discovery, self acceptance, knowing your strengths and your weaknesses requires truth, strength, optimism, undeterred determination and stick-to-itiveness to keep moving forward even when you feel like quitting. Being […]
In a recent candid conversation with my sister ten years my junior, we made a startling discovery. Our eyes were opened to our similarities and differences as it relates to sex and our personal preferences. We are much alike yet so different! #childsexualabuse #rape #reassigntheshame #speak
I faltered by the way, but that’s okay! I am giving myself permission to start again! I haven’t written a blog post in months. I justified my actions by convincing myself that life, the demands of motherhood and the various projects I took on got in the way. Truth is, though life and work were […]