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COURT: DAY 7… A GRANDMOTHER’S BETRAYAL.

26 Mar

A Grandmother’s Betrayal… CHOOSE YOU!!!

Some days were unbearable (emotionally). Sitting across from the matriarch of the family, knowing she’s present at court not because of her daughters and granddaughters, but instead in support of her husband that sexually abused her daughters and granddaughters… Some days were tough!

Court: Day 7 This day was rather challenging (mentally) for me. The journey continues…

Court. Day’s 5 & 6

26 Feb

Fighting Against Childhood Sexual Abuse

Standing up for what you believe in and seeking justice in the fight against Child Sexual Abuse seems like an unattainable feat. The challenges, and obstacles presented, the mental struggles, the emotional upheaval having to go back, to relive the memories, the flashbacks, the nightmares… Who knowingly and willingly wants to put themselves through this harsh and rather painful experience? I do and I did!

I HAD TO GO BACK TO MOVE FORWARD! I was tired and exhausted from feeling like a complete stranger in my own body. I was existing but my very existence felt foreign to me. I often felt like an intruder into my own life and body. I was robbed. I was wounded. I was broken. I got tired of living like a mere fraction trying desperately to be whole, but being or feeling whole evaded me.

I brought him (my abuser) to court after thirty (30) long years! The process was EXTREMELY trying and difficult but so worth it! As challenging and difficult as it was and despite the fact the defense attorney tried to paint an awful picture of me to make his case, the feeling of looking my abuser in the eyes (as dreadful as it was at times) I was slowly but surely taking my power back from the BASTARD that had stolen my innocence and robbed me of my self-worth, my trust, MY CHILDHOOD…

Today I stand however, determined to TAKE IT ALL BACK… Join me on this journey. #JOURNEY2FREE

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YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME!

15 Jan

YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME

You were suppose to love me – Not abuse me

You were suppose to teach me – Not confuse me

You were suppose to guide, direct, and shield – Not have SEX with me!

You were meant to protect but – You destroyed me mentally.

You told me I was born for a purpose and expected me to understand, but how could I if seemingly I was just a part of your sick, twisted and sinister plan. You said I’m here for a reason, PLEASE explain the reason to me! Was it to suffer from pain and anguish?! That’s what I know, that’s all I’ve seen.

How can you say I’ll be someone great! Why, Why, couldn’t you just let me be?!

Now tell me, what life value can you instill in me, when the man who was suppose to love me, teach me, shelter and protect me won’t let me be?! Life from my perspective now becomes to hell with you, to hell with me?!

YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME!!

Instead you took advantage- you stole my innocence, you took my sense of wonder, you annihilated hope, decimated trust, you blighted the future! YOU VIOLATED ME!

You don’t know where I’m heading and where I’ll end up aint no telling!

You shattered dreams, you broke my heart, you replaced joy with pain and turned something beautiful and pure into utter disdain.

HE WAS SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME – NOT HAVE SEX WITH ME!!

BUT, these were the actions and beliefs of dear old grandad, so what are you saying I shouldn’t be sad?!

You dare not ask me to be happy, I much enjoy being sad, for it was those time that I was happy…

It maybe twisted but I’m glad when I’m sad.

I could pretend but it would be all lies, and don’t you DARE go judging me until you’ve looked through my eyes!

YOU WERE SUPPOSE TO LOVE ME!